Dear Friends,
Do you ever get to tonight and forget the details of the day?
I can only remember broad strokes: exercise, buy coffee, talk with a new friend, paint.
Today I learned the term “chemo brain.” Perhaps you’ve heard it; maybe you’ve even endured it. I learned it today from my new friend, a nurse. She said that people getting chemo are often not really themselves for awhile, maybe as long as two years after treatment. You don’t necessarily get a chemo brain, but you might. It’s a small price to pay for staying alive.
I feel like my brain too shattered when Clark died, and is now reassembling. In some ways I may never be whole again, and in others I might be stronger. A simple example came today - I got a new toaster. But in Tallahassee we had four (yes!) toasters. For some crazy reason I was certain I’d never make toast again, so I gave them all away (you might have one … enjoy it!) My action did not make sense.
I made many decisions in this fog, and I still am. Some gut knowledge guided me, and it seems to be working out. Thank you for helping me.
Tuesday
Do you ever get to tonight and forget the details of the day?
I can only remember broad strokes: exercise, buy coffee, talk with a new friend, paint.
Today I learned the term “chemo brain.” Perhaps you’ve heard it; maybe you’ve even endured it. I learned it today from my new friend, a nurse. She said that people getting chemo are often not really themselves for awhile, maybe as long as two years after treatment. You don’t necessarily get a chemo brain, but you might. It’s a small price to pay for staying alive.
I feel like my brain too shattered when Clark died, and is now reassembling. In some ways I may never be whole again, and in others I might be stronger. A simple example came today - I got a new toaster. But in Tallahassee we had four (yes!) toasters. For some crazy reason I was certain I’d never make toast again, so I gave them all away (you might have one … enjoy it!) My action did not make sense.
I made many decisions in this fog, and I still am. Some gut knowledge guided me, and it seems to be working out. Thank you for helping me.
Tuesday
It was hot this afternoon. Very hot. I painted flowers.
Love,
k
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18" x 20"
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